5.12.2012

And we wait.


I want wounds.
New ones.
The scars are fading.
I miss accomplishing something.
No matter how sick.

I overcame.

But I want to revisit.

It's strange though.
I want to revisit to create something of aesthetic value.
Scarification.

How does that differ from cutting?

I want to see the insides.
A photo of the gaping wound.
Not just the aftermath.

It's becoming harder and harder to recall.
The puckering of skin as it buckles to accommodate.
A perversion of the human condition.

It's hard to find reason to avoid.
If I'm not incredibly sick does that make it worse?
I just want something new.

I don't think I'm okay right now. 

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